Lost in Korea
I think it has finally hit me that I have no clue what I am doing with my life!
All the ex-pats I have met have some semblance of direction: I am going to law school, going for my PHD, my masters, going to work for such and such, etc. Everyone seems to have a plan. Everyone except me. I have no clue what the hell will happen tomorrow, let alone next year!
I am so lonely here... I hate the food... hate being stared at... hate not knowing what is being said to or about me... I hate feeling so confused!
I know that this is just a phase... the homesickness and insecure phase was bound to kick in sometime.... but I find that when I am alone... at night... all by myself.... I find that I am contemplating where I am going and what I am doing. I know that Rome was not built in a day and that decisions and life choices take time to formulate and come into play... but I feel stuck. URGH!
I really don't hate Korea... the people are really kind and really go out of their way to help me the best they can... and my students are amazing.... and well it has given me a chance to become more independent and pay off my debts... I just.... but like any decision, there is always the downside... and for me the downside comes with feeling lost. And today I feel lost... Lost in Korea
posted by Chelsea-Anne at 12:11 PM
3 Comments:
Gee...that title sounds familiar! J/k... :)
Anyways I had a blast the other night, we definitely need to hang out again!!! Feel free to email me any time you wanna do something, I'm always up for a night out. Sorry about not calling for dinner tonight. I was out and about all day today and realized I left your number at home when I was going to call. But yeah, do you wanna do something this week? Maybe go see a movie or go shopping or something? Let me know, k?
:)
-Jen
PS - Don't feel so bad about the lack of direction thing. Believe me, I feel the same way!!!
9:29 PM
*hugs*
You may feel like you're the only one that is feeling lost, but you aren't. I know you will figure stuff out and that things will get better.
10:12 AM
I can sympathy your feeling. :)
after coming here(vancouver), many bad things happened to me.
But I think the best thing is enjoying at this moment. ^ ^
the current time becomes the past,
we may realize all I think and feel is nothing :)
(acually, I'm not sure the meaning which I want to tell you can delivery well. I'm not good at English yet.;;)
4:51 AM
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